Monthly Archives: April 2016

Cyclocross training

I’m officially starting my training. Lurline’s cousin is a certified endurance coach and she’s helping me make a plan for building endurance and getting set for the races. I’ll be running 3 days a week and cross training on a fourth, eventually building up to some 2 hour runs — definitely the longest runs I’ve ever done.

Here’s a video of what cyclocross is in case you don’t know:

I’m starting a bootcamp at the end of summer that runs for four weeks right before the season starts. I’m hoping to have upped my endurance and lost a few pounds by then so I have the stamina to do this competitively. While I know I likely won’t do well in my first few races while I get everything down, there’s still a competitive part of me that wants to. I’ve only ever won a competitive solo sporting event once, but man did that feel good (I fenced for five years in college). My third place finishes were nice, too, so my dream goal for this is to get a third place at some point in the season. Again, I’ll be realistic and not beat myself up if it doesn’t happen, but still…

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Grandparents

We had four of Roz’s five grandparents visit last month (my parents divorced and my dad is remarried) and although it has been hectic and occasionally stressful, she and they have really enjoyed it. It’s fun to see how happy her grandparents get around her. They smile and laugh and talk lovingly to her and it’s beautiful to watch. And she does the same! It’s clear she loves all of them, and though I occasionally hear the comment that she doesn’t remember them, it is really clear to me she does.

I love it when family visits. Any family – aunts, uncles, grandparents, whomever. Although some of my family has never visited me here I hope that changes over the next years. I really miss the big family gatherings of my childhood, gatherings that still happen, but generally require us to devote a week and 11+ hours of driving to attend. Worth it, but tiring. Someday I’d love to host one here. We did Thanksgiving with the grandparents and Lurline’s aunt one year and that was a ton of fun. I’d love to get my mom’s brothers and my cousins on that side up for a holiday one year, and my dad’s siblings and my cousins there up another. Or maybe everyone at once. We wouldn’t have room to walk, but it would be great anyway!

Last week I took R to visit MY grandparents. Her great-grandparents love her so much and it’s so apparent in the way they interact with her. My grandpa had the greatest smile on his face when he fed her breakfast and my grandma just loved talking and singing with her.

Grandpa George feeding R breakfast

Grandpa George feeding R breakfast

Grandma Mary Helen with R

Grandma Mary Helen with R

We also got to see “Grandpa John”. John was my neighbor growing up. His sons are about my age and my sister and I spent a lot of time with their family when we still lived at home. John has remained a good friend for over twenty years now, so it seems fitting he be an honorary grandpa to R. I had the realization last week that John and his family are my oldest friends at this point. I’ve been friends with them since I was 11 or 12, and I’m not in touch with anyone I’ve known longer outside of family members. It’s nice to have some twenty year friends in my life. John is the baby whisperer and R took to him right away.

"Grandpa" John with R

“Grandpa” John with R

R also finally got to meet my uncle Mike. That was pretty great. Mike doesn’t always warm up to kids right away, but before he left he was bouncing her in his lap with a big grin on his face. She clearly loved him, too.

I love seeing R around family and it’s my goal to see all of them more this year. I’m sad it took over a year for her to meet my uncles and I hope to visit them more often in the coming years.

I’ll leave you with a photo of R wearing a hat from John’s Great Dalmuti silly hat collection. (Great Dalmuti is one of the best card games out there and I highly recommend you try it, with or without silly hats.)

R in John's silly hat

R in John’s silly hat

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My dad’s struggles

I posted on Facebook a couple weeks ago that I had just had one of the roughest weeks of my life. I’m ready to talk about it now. My dad has struggled with depression and PTSD for his entire life. He grew up in a family with an abusive father and has dealt with the repercussions of that childhood trauma ever since. This includes severe, debilitating depression, anxiety, anger, poor sleep, and the difficulties of facing triggers for his PTSD. It has effected not only him but our entire family.

I have known about his struggles for most of my life – I saw him struggle when he and my mom divorced, I visited him when he went to a short-term inpatient program at Oregon Health Sciences University for electroconvulsive therapy, I watched him struggle to get off the couch some days. However, it was not until this recent episode that I realized how truly debilitating his depression could be. On March 28th, R and I flew him to the East Coast to help with the intake process for an inpatient program in Massachusetts.

The program he started on the 30th specializes in just the kind of trauma and depression he struggles with. The average patient reports significant improvement at the end of their stay and my family and I are incredibly hopeful that this will be the key to improving his mental health. I will admit it may not be a complete fix. This kind of struggle remains, even with high quality treatment, but I hope this will get him to a point where it is no longer debilitation and is something he has the tools to deal with when it gets bad.

However, this program is costly. The average stay is five months and the total bill will be in the neighborhood of $160,000. His insurance has rejected his initial claim and without help it will be difficult, if not impossible for him to afford anything beyond the initial six week intensive program. The best results come from doing both the intensive initial program and a step-down program that lasts from 1-9 months. My dad really wants to stay for the five months to get the best and most thorough help he can. You can read more about everything in the crowd funding campaign I started, “Help Tim With His Act of Courage”.

To help him I have started the campaign on Generosity by Indiegogo. This is a no-fee platform (aside from the processing fee for credit cards), so you know that 97% of your donation goes directly to supporting his care. It is run by donations from campaign donors, but that is optional – you can just change the donation to $0.

I’m asking now for help for him. Kind words (I’ll forward any emails sent to mcs@murr.cc), shares of this campaign, and financial support are all so helpful. Open discussions of mental health are so important and I hope this not only helps my dad, but helps normalize mental health as a health problem to be dealt with in the same way as physical illness.

Thanks for taking the time to read this and for helping not only my dad but my entire family.

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Repaired bike and a new seat

After G&O closed (temporarily – they are back now!) due to the explosion in Greenwood my family bike had to go and get a flat. A flat? you ask. What’s so big about a flat? Just pull the wheel off and replace it. For any of my other bikes I’d say yes, I can totally fix my own flat, but unfortunately on the Yuba it’s just not that simple.

First of all, the wheel is bolted on. No biggie there, but at the time I didn’t own a socket set with long sockets to reach in there and undo the bolts. Second, there is an adapter in the dropouts to make the axel on the wheel fit. That’s the hangup right there.

So, since G&O was closed, I aired up the tire (thankfully it was a slow leak), and rode down to the shop I use all the time for my non-cargo-e-bikes. They are great and I highly recommend them, even though this story may make you question that opinion. But really, I trust them with all the rest of my bikes. They do good work. Still, I might not mention there name here just in case.

First, it took maybe half an hour for the mechanic to get the wheel off, replace the tube, and put the wheel back on. Okay, I thought, I guess it’s involved with this bike. I purchased a new tube and off I went. I got home, though, and heard that telltale sound of a brake rubbing. Every single time I’ve had a brake start rubbing suddenly on a bike it’s been because the axel wasn’t seated quite right. So I inspected the axel and noticed that yes, it wasn’t quite seated in the dropout properly. No big deal, I though, I can fix that. (At that point I didn’t know about the adapter.) I ordered some longer sockets (I need them anyway for other things) and managed to qualify for next day shipping from Amazon (Tacoma Screw was closed already and I didn’t want to drive to Home Depot). They arrived the next day and I went to work.

First I tried flipping the bike over to get better access to the wheel. Not a good idea – it tipped over. I guess what works for my Surly doesn’t work for a Yuba. Not too surprising in retrospect. So instead I did it right side up. I loosened the nut and began wiggling the wheel. I am not super mechanically minded, and it seems whenever I do something like this I just make things worse. It held true this time. I can replace a light switch in 10 minutes, install my own light fixtures, and build things out of wood, but as soon as I start working on anything mechanical I get stuck. When am I going to learn?

I posted to the local family biking group asking for advice. I got a ton of advice, but none of it was helpful. So I was still stuck with an unrideable bike. This is made worse by the fact that I have no way to transport said bike when I can’t ride it.

Thankfully two things came together. G&O let me bring it by a couple days before they were actually open, and my friend Mark offered his truck to haul it there. It still took me a week for the stars to line up and get there, but I was saved! Once I got it there, Donald was able to re-set the wheel in about 10 minutes. He showed me what had happened and that’s when I learned about the adapter. So, now I definitely am not replacing my own tire.

Unfortunately, this leaves me with the rather worrisome question of what to do if I get a flat halfway between home and Red Hook. I still haven’t figured that out. My best idea is to buy one of the air canisters with the patching goo in them and hope that keeps it inflated long enough to get home. I’m open to suggestions. I would love to learn how to take the wheel on and off, but then I’d have to haul around my socket wrench everywhere just in case. And I can’t do it at home anyway because my bike stand won’t hold the Yuba. I’m thinking the air canister is the bet bet, and certainly the quickest fix.

Of course, that wasn’t the end of it. I am beginning to think I have a gremlin infestation because it feels like things always come in twos or threes with this bike. When I left G&O the motor wouldn’t go. I turned around and with some jiggling of the throttle wire connector it was back up and running. I got home without incident. However, the next day it wasn’t working again. I jiggled everything I could find with no luck. So, I was bikeless until I could get up to G&O again for a repair.

I forget why, but I couldn’t get in on the weekend and they are closed Monday and Tuesday, and then on Wednesday we were so busy I couldn’t make it then either. Finally yesterday I was able to get up there. Even better I had a babysitter so I could drop the roughly 25 pounds my daughter adds to what is already a pretty heavy bike. By zig-zagging through the neighborhood I was able to get up to the top of the ridge without trouble. I only had to stop once. I feel like I should really do that once a week for strength purposes. I’ve decided to race cyclocross this year and I need to get used to climbing. Quad strength here I come!

Tyler tracked the problem down to a bad throttle and replaced it on the spot. I was back up and running. While I was there I purchased a new seat for the bike. I’d been wanting to move R to the back ever since I saw she can reach the throttle. I had purchased a used Peanut Shell from a woman I met on the Burke-Gilman, but it was plagued with problems. Missing parts, some of which Davey at G&O helped me track down (thankfully I also tracked some down because it turned out neither of us had the full set), only to discover that one of the straps was missing a part making it non-adjustable and completely unsafe. I finally gave up.

Davey helped me pick out a seat and I bought it while I was there for the repair. I opted to install it myself because all it involved was bolting an adapter to the deck of my bike. Since it involved wood instead of mechanical parts I felt pretty confident I could do it myself. That night I spent an hour removing the Peanut and installing the Yepp. It went without incident. I followed good old Norm’s advice about measuring twice and cutting once and got my holes in exactly the right spots.

Today was the first time out riding with R on the back. I was a little nervous she might not like it as well as the front, but she was just fine. I did realize that carrying anything on my back isn’t really great, but luckily my backpack didn’t hit her in the face. Now I’m just hoping there is enough room behind the seat for my panniers… I didn’t even think to measure that! Cross your fingers for me.

The surprising thing about today wasn’t that R was fine, it was that I liked how the bike handles with her weight on the back better than when she’s on the front. The e-assist got us up the hill on the lowest power setting instead of the highest and I felt a little more in control. Best part though? I no longer have to splay my knees out when I pedal. It was necessity with her on the front and had spilled into my non-cargo biking, causing me significant knee pain when biking long distances. Now I can break that habit and hopefully be pain free!

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